I'm sorry that I stole your red pencil

I'm sorry that I ''borrowed'' your books

 I'm sorry that I copied your homework

 I'm sorry that I was too dramatic

I'm sorry that I never finished a story

 I'm sorry that I got mad and threw the animal kingdom coffee cup at the main office

 I'm sorry that I was too clingy

 I'm sorry that I was too moody

 I'm sorry that I bitched about my problems to you all the time

 I'm sorry that I told my parents everything

 I'm sorry that I've never said sorry and meant it as much as now

 I'm sorry that on St Patricks day, I yelled at you and it was none of my buisiness

 I'm sorry that I came crawling back like it was nothing

 I'm sorry that I acted like a spoiled child just to get you to notice me

 I'm sorry that, because of one decision in the start of the year, I made 7th Hell for both of us

 I'm sorry that I froze in the elevator

 And I'm sorry that this might sit in my draft folder for three months before I get the guts to send it to you

 I'm not sorry that I spent two amazing years with you

 I'm not sorry that I told you

 I'm not sorry that you already new

 And I'm not sorry that I Love You

I'm so mad because I typed this up last week and the power went out, so I'm gonna try and retype the original message as best I can.

I just got back from tour.  It was only 2 weeks, not as long as some of the other groups out there, but It's the longest tour we've been on yet!  For a fun day, we went to Cedar Point, in Ohio.  I was one of the first 3000 to ride the Maverick, so We got a free t-shirt!  Yaay me!   Here are my top 3:

1)Top thrill Dragster

2)Millenium Force

3)Maverick

Here's the website for the Dragster: http://www.cedarpoint.com/public/park/rides/coasters/top_thrill_dragster/index.cfm

I love that ride!!  And I'm now going to tell yall somthing some of you have figured out already, and I'm getting tired of hiding it.  Kitty is a Girl.  I'm Bisexual.  Yaay me.

I called Kitty almost every night on tour.  brown went with us, cause she's in the group, and seemed to take great glee in the fact that she had been with Kitty all year, and that I hadn't seen Kitty in eight months.  But that may just be paranoia an my part.  Anyway, brown (have you noticed to lack of capital letter on her name?  That's silent disrespect that she'll never know about, that is.  Gah, ignore me, I'm tired and upset.) and I started talking about how we were both in love with Kitty, but brown doesn't want to be controlled anymore and blah blah blah.  God, I feel like a jerk for being so mean to brown.  Tell me if I'm seeming too harsh, okay?   Cause I'll definetly check myself in the future if I am.

brown told me that Kitty says that she loves her all the time.  Which hurts, I'm not going to lie.  brown also said that Kitty never means it when she says 'I love you' to her.  THEN brown said that Kitty doesn't really love me, and that kitty was really just a pretty whore.  I, of course, got defensive and, like all problems I'm faced with, didn't say a word like a coward.

But I got to thinking... it's okay to love someone, even if they don't love you back in quite the same way... right?  So even if Kitty really doesn't love me, I still love her and I can't be mad at her for it.  Because I figure if I really do love her, I shouldn't be able to really be mad at her, right?

I don't even know if this makes any sense to any of you.  Tour always makes my sleepy and delirious.

Flippen Spaztastic.