I feel like crying.

 I always like the wrong people....  I'm sad.

The boy decided to get a 'real' girlfreind.  Kind of like a kick in the stomach, really.  He's just like... "Yeah, do you know So-and-so?"

I didn't, really.

"Well...  Yeah, she's my real girlfriend now."

And I was just like "Oh...Sweet.  That's cool." Trying to act like I wasn't going to cry.  I don't think he noticed how upset I was.  I hope he didn't.

And I really don't want to be mad at him, because I still think he's realy sweet, and I can't be mad at him for going out with So-and-so.  That's his choice, anyway.  But then, yesterday, he walked up to me (I was talking to J, my stalker boy, who's become less of a stalker and more like one of my best friends ever!:) )  and was just like, "I feel so proud of myself!  Before, So-and-so didn't know how to make out, and now she's really good at it!  I taught her everything she knows, I feel so acomplished!"  Then he just grinned and walked away, like a total jerk.

Sigh.  This really sucks.

OKAY, but time to stop wallowing in misplaced misery, on to the fun stuff!!!

So... Schizoid has decided to become my big brother... for unknown reasons.  Except we discovered yesterday that I'm like.. a month and a half older than him.  But I don't much care, and I don't act like it, anyway.  So now everytime I see him I'm all like, "BIG BROTHER BIG BROTHER!"  And I jump up and down five times.  I've got it down to a science, I have.  And then we hug, and her tells me that little sisters don't really call their brothers "Big Brother."  And I argure that I don't really care much, so there.

:D

Tomorrow night, I'm going to a HUGE Holloween party with like... thousands of people, I'm not even kidding.  It's going to be REALLY scary, I think I might just cry.  I'm going with my other five "big brothers" that I work with.  I'm gonna cry, and they're gonna tease me about it for ages. That's sad.  Oh well...

Then on Saturday, I'm going to my friends party, who I'm going to call Roosevelt, because I don't think I've talked about him before.  I haven't seen him in a while... since I switched campuses, I think.  Should be tons of fun!

Oh oh!!  In other news, I have an 'A' in all of my classes for my final grade!!  Quite proud!  Only the second time in my life that's happened!!  :):):):):):):):):):):):)

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