Okay so, I've been having a really bad kick-off of the week, you know? Mondays and all that. I still can't breath and my head has been giving me all sorts of trouble. I got on the phone, and called my friend, who from now on is named Kitty, to whine and complain about how sick I am and how I feel lke I'm going to explode. We got into a bit of a fight over somthing really stupid and just... immature. So, finally, after being yelled at for the past 20 minutes by Kitty, I hung up and cried. Just all out sobbing, because Kitty could be the one person in my life that I actually love, and I just mucked it all up. And then, I got out my MP3 player, and put it on shuffle. And you know what came up? A song I've been working on for the past six months titled "It's all gonna be okay". There wasn't any guitar or piano with it, just me singing. I recorded it on a really crappy mic in my livingroom, so the sound quality was horrible. But it was beautiful. It made me stop and think, this is NOTthe end of the world. The end of the world is not going to come just because I'm fighting with someone I love. I was being completely selfish, and the song I had written for the very person I had been fighting with ended up speaking to me the most. And even if things don't work out between me and Kitty, and I end up walking away, the world still isn't going to end. The world WILL NOT END just because I stop. Music will still be in the world, and I truly believe that music is the the heart of our society, our communities, our countries, our ethnic groups, our religions, our people. It's not gonna stop. The heart aches, the pain, it's not gonna stop. But it's all gonna be okay. Because music is in our lives, braided and twisted into the threads of everything we are. I know this sounds really stupid, and like it's staight out of a Disney movie script, but it's not. It's my life, and honestly, I don't care if you think I'm an idiot for posting somthing like this. I really don't care. And if you don't think I'm stupid, and you know what I'm talking about, thanks for listening. It's all gonna be okay. |